counting the days.

It's 140am already. i can't sleep. what luck. i've got school at 9am tomorrow even though there's no tutorial. all this thanks to that sdl thing. fuckheads. hmm. i'm really out of idea on what to blog. since I'm at it, might as well i'll give a piece of my mind. well, i think that i should not bother about ___ anymore. like to me its no use. at first my hardworks might be worth it but then later on, it all goes down the drains. and yes. not only me who got disappointed. both me and the one i helped. why? because my hardwork wasted and the other one feels as if being used when needed. like whatever. i dont know how to say this but its like you are already taken and yet you kept bugging him. why? seriously why? sometimes i pity him but at times he just deserves it. huhu. but seriously, why dont i just forget about this and pretend nothing has ever happen.

secondly, i think i should stay out of their matter. well, i may seem like a bugger but im in good intention to help. but sometimes i feel like im doing this for myself and seems like they dont like it. i dont know but this is what i think. seriously, i think i should stay out of the affair and only help when being asked or when really needed. hmm. i think that all of my doings are for good intention but its just that the other party might not like what im doing. so better off for me to stay away. okay i feeel so down now. gotta go. gonna watch namira's video to cheer me up . hehh

btw im loving life in nyp! gyeah. met lotsa new people. woohoo. intend to meet more. hehehe. nighty nite